A Time to Be Excited, Adoption Story Page 6

Once we decided to adopt, excitement set in. The decision brought so much freedom to our lives. For so many years we dreamt of what our family was going to look like, our hopes would be raised and then shattered. When you are dreaming about having a child biologically, you know that you will become pregnant, a baby will be born, the baby will look like you and have some of your personality qualities, the child will continue to grow. A person who has their children through pregnancy pretty much knows what to expect. When you are growing your family through adoption, you really don't know how your family is going to look. Since we adopted through DHS, we had a lot of options. We were able to decide what age group we wanted to look at, if we wanted a sibling group, what race. Initially we put that we wanted a sibling group ages seven and younger. It was a big surprise when we ended up with a young child without a sibling group, but that is for a different page. This was the time when we were finally able to dream about what our family was going to look like and know that it would soon come true. It was such a happy time in our lives and we could feel the peace that comes from letting God have control of our plans.  It was during this time that I found my joy. I realized that my life didn't need to look how I wanted it to. I became content with the idea of  my life looking how God wanted it to look. That was true freedom. In the next months that joy and freedom grew while we went through the process of adoption. God brought me out of the darkness and into the season of fulfilment.